Discover your Creative Roots
Updated: Dec 6, 2018
As children we are carefree and the world is full of endless possibilities, but as we get older those possibilities grow smaller and smaller as "reality" sets in and we get stuck trying to mold to societies idea of success instead of doing what makes us happy. It doesn't have to be that way, you can live your dreams and be happy. We all have creative roots that run deep into our souls and once you discover those roots and nurture them you can blossom and grow and truly find happiness and fulfillment.
This is my story and how I discovered my Creative Roots
I made my first film when I was 11 years old with my Grandma's giant video camera. I hand wrote the scripts and bribed my sisters and cousins to be in my films and comedy skits while I directed and operated the camera. Everyday after school and on the weekends I couldn't wait to get my hands on the camera to create another film or skit, my heart and and soul was 100% invested and satisfied with a camera in my hand. I never had a vision of being famous or rich movie star or director, I created everything out of pure love for the process and how amazing it felt to create, I didn't want to do anything else.
My family was supportive, but never really understood why I was so passionate and dedicated to creating because being an actor or director was not an attainable career choice and I eventually started to believe them. As I got older and started finding my way in the restaurant business as a general manger at 21, I made less and less films and started treating my passion as a film maker as a hobby because I thought this restaurant career was it. I have my career then I would get married and have 2 kids by the time I was 26. It was a solid plan, but my heart wasn't there and I always had this nagging tug on my heart that something wasn't right and yet I still didn't listen myself, until someone else noticed I wasn't happy.
One day one of my supervisors asked me what am I doing with my life and I was taken back by his question because climbing the restaurant corporate ladder was my plan. He told me I should go to college and follow my passion because he put his dreams on the back burner over his career and always wondered what life would be like if he hadn't abandoned something he was so passionate about. That hit me in the gut hard, everything that had been nagging on my heart in the background came to the forefront and looking back, that is the moment I opened my eyes my whole world started changing.
It was a whirl wind. I signed up at the community college and started working on my AS degree and joined the choir and theatre department. I couldn't believe there were other people like me out there, I was so stoked! I started performing in shows at the local community theaters which led to finding other film makers to collaborate with on all kinds of amazing projects.
One day after a theatre show my Grandma came and watched, she shared a personal story with me that had us both in tears. She said she always wanted to be an actress and a writer when she was in high school and did a couple of plays, but gave up and she regretted not even trying. She was so happy and inspired watching me chase my dreams and made me promise not to give up.
How crazy is that?? The women who practically raised me and inspired me my entire life was inspired by me! I will never ever forget that moment for the rest of my life and since that day my goal has been to encourage and help others explore and grow their Creative Roots.
It's not always easy, but I listened to my heart and I am so grateful to God for everyday that I get to do exactly what I love~
Listen to yourself, follow your heart and explore your Creative Roots.